read, write, ramble

Author: Justin Page 51 of 66

January 25

I wake up at 6:20am feeling like my body is made of lead. Thoughts of getting up for my morning shift are briefly considered, then swiftly abandoned.

It’s a two-coffee day. It’s also bastard hot, which makes the second coffee in particular feel like some sort of Sisyphean endeavour. I have to take Rach home halfway through the day when a migraine hits. I plough through the rest of afternoon with the knowledge that I have a four-day weekend coming my way.

At the end of the day m still determined to start reading something (that hasn’t been published on the internet). Browsing through the swatches of books that I’ve purchase from Amazon I spot On Writing by Stephen King. Perfect. I love Stephen King and I love reading about writing. I settle in and end up reading way past my bedtime.

January 24

I’m having some unusually vivid, but strangely banal dreams when the Kinderbeast tears me from sleep at 4:30am asking to be tucked in again. One day I’ll work out what it is that wakes him at that same time on seemingly random nights of the week. I go back to sleep but wake up again at about 6am, 20 minutes ahead of my alarm. I can hear something at the front door, at the fly screen. I then hear scratching on the roof. I don’t hear anything else especially worrying, so I wait for the alarm to go off and then get out of bed.

There’s no signs of what was making the noise, but the cats sniff our patio fly-screen intently before going outside so I figure a local tom has been around to claim our property. I’ll expect our eviction orders presently …

The day starts off with three plus hours of web-based training. It’s perfectly fine, but I am dead after sitting at my desk for three plus hours, even with regular tea breaks and distractions. While the rest of the day is perfectly productive, my energy levels don’t really recover and once again I’m dead on my feet by home time.

Rach and the Elderbeast have already gone to the cricket by the time I return home so it’s a fairly typical domestic evening of cooking dinner and putting the Kinderbeast to bed. I don’t really feel like watching anything, so I continue to struggle with Plex–which is clearly the root of all evil in the world–and try to get it to load posters for all my media correctly…

I plan to spend the rest of the evening rereading The Martian. My reading has slumped since the Christmas break, and I decide that revisiting a book I thoroughly enjoyed would not only be a good kickstarter, but it means I can also devote some of my attention to studying exactly why it proved such an unputdownable read. In the end I get stuck into a final edit of one of my own stories (Between The Devil & The Comfy Chair) and don’t end up starting anything.

January 23

Another Monday, another meeting in the city. The steaming heap of minor delays to my morning reaches a peak when I discover that the petrol station has run out of petrol (for the second time in a week). This is inconvenient as I need to drive into the city in a car that is hovering perilously over the empty line. In the end I’m half an hour early, instead of very nearly late–one of the benefits of paying minimal attention to your work calendar over the weekend.

While I’m happy not to have to drive into the city every day, I miss my London days when you could see the city starting to wake up as you walked to work. Cafe owners putting out chairs, people making their various ways to their various jobs; all the tiny things that keep the world turning.

It proves a relatively unsurprising Monday, insofar as many trivial things go wrong. I manage to reverse the car into a tree (causing very, very minor damage to the bumper). I endure a huge energy crash in the afternoon. I’m unable to get Plex to index all of my media properly! For unrelated reasons we can’t get the next few episodes of Brooklyn Nine-Nine to play at all. I admit defeat and we watch the ‘Bob’ episode of Blackadder II before despatching the Elderbeast, who is being particularly tiresome, to bed so we can get in another episode of Luke Cage.

January 22

Despite a late end to my Saturday (somehow I end up reading until past midnight) I’m still up at 6:30am. This is partly at the behest of the Kinderbeast, who demands feeding. Regardless, I’m as surprised as anyone to be up and writing.

I’ve had a few thoughts about how to frame the story I’m currently struggling through, and I put some of them into a rewritten first scene. It’s still far from what I’m hoping for, but it’s better.

I continue to be obsessed with Twitter. History is taking place this weekend, and it’s compelling being able to have a front row seat.

We have a slow morning, letting the various Kinderbesten play after their sleepover. I take the plunge and start reformatting my PC. The job mostly goes well, but some of my backups haven’t quite worked as planned. It’s ok, there’s nothing that can’t be restored, but it proves tiresome as the day goes on.

By the afternoon my early start, and the tedium of restoring my computer, is wearing me down. We eat some tagliatelle with pesto, make some banana bread, I drink as much wine as my relatively low tolerance for alcohol will accept. Then we watch some more Brooklyn 99 and the day is done.

January 21

I start the day with a glorious lie-in. Saturday is designated lie-in day, but on this occasion a the Kinderbeast gets Rach up to prepare his breakfast and she even brings me tea. It’s a fine start to the day. We briefly consider joining the Women’s March in Perth–I’m very keen to activate the Elderbeasts’s activism, and this is a fine chance–unfortunately, as Rach puts it, we are unable to human today.

A idea at the back of my mind to reformat my PC, to hopefully deal with its various quirks, develops into an actual commitment. I start backing up things and making lists of what will need to be restored. The preparation takes most of the day, especially as my first attempt to create a USB Windows installer (after about an hour of downloading Windows) fails.

In the afternoon we are introduced to Risk by a friend whose son is in the Elderbeast’s class at school. The Kinderbesten tire quickly, but we enjoy it. The Elderbeast’s friend ends up staying over for a sleepover, which is a novel experience for all. At one point the Elderbeast complains that he and his friend can’t get to sleep, and I remark internally that he doesn’t even do sleepovers like a regular child. Which pleases me. I have no idea how much sleep they actually get in the end: I can hear them prowling around the house even after I’ve turned my light off.

We confine the kids to the secondary TV room to watch Bill And Ted’s Bogus Journey. We entertain ourselves by finally starting Luke Cage, which is glorious, retro-fuelled, slow-burning and every bit as good as I hoped it would be. Two episodes down and I’m looking forward to more.

The news of the Women’s Marches filtering through on twitter fills me with hope. The inauguration of Trump will eventually become a moment of deep shame for the US, but the unexpectedly massive turnout for the marches shows that the majority have bigger ideas that Trump and his minions are trying to enforce upon people.

Also, a nazi got punched. It can never be a bad day when you’ve seen a nazi get punched.

January 20

I’ve booked the day off work, as necessitated by school holidays, but I still get up to write. The first draft of the new story isn’t coming any easier yet: just 184 words today. I’m still somewhat ailing from The Plague. At least that’s my excuse.

Regardless, in a fit of energy I decide to corral the Kinderbesten into the garden to help clear the forest of weeds that have overtaken the passageway down the side of our house. The task doesn’t take too long, but I deeply regret not taking a ‘before’ photo–it would have provided some excellent nightmare fuel.

We then head to the shops, ostensibly so the Elderbeast can spend his EB Games voucher. When we fail to find a copy of the game he actually wants, there ensues a vibrant discussion over whether he should be allowed to buy Metal Gear Solid. He shouldn’t (and isn’t), because it’s R18, but it’s not until we’re driving home that he finally accepts this. These things can sometimes be a challenge, but the Elderbeast is becoming far more measured in the way that he tackles these first world adversities. It’s a good sign.

I am wrecked for the afternoon, so we all just chill out in our various ways. I am still wrecked when our friend Seb arrives for Fridate and barely have the energy to curate our Friday night viewing, as is my traditional duty. Luckily Rach suggests some music and I slowly compile a reasonably diverse playlist from the various delights and horrors that YouTube has to offer. At the Elderbeast’s behest we also enjoy a mandatory viewing of the SNL Super Showcase sketch.

I’m not sure that it’s beef, Karl …

January 19

Overslept! Normally I’m up and about by 6:30. This morning I wake up and my phone’s telling me it’s already past 7am. I don’t even remember the alarm going off. It’s too late for a worthwhile morning shift (a.k.a writing) so I opt to make some tea and ease into the morning instead.

I get to work and am highly relieved to confirm that a mishap on my behalf the day before has not, after all, resulted in major chunks of my colleagues’ work being irretrievably deleted. And the less said about that …

Understandably, the rest of the day requires two coffees. It is one of those rare working days with not quite enough hours in it (as opposed to about three times too many), but I am still evidently battling the Office Plague (or suffering from Not Enough Sleep) so I head home when the appropriate hour comes.

Brief dilemma for the evening, now that we’ve exhausted the Sherlock vault, but it is quickly resolved when we remember we still have season 4 of Brooklyn 99 to watch.

January 18

I’ve failed to bring one of the bins down from the front lawn. It’s sitting there, lid open, all but abandoned now that its contents have been collected. It’s a windy night. The lid knocks constantly against the side of the bin … th-thump-th-thump-thump … I don’t notice it at first … th-thump-th-thump-thump … eventually I turn my light off to go to sleep … th-thump-th-thump-thump … when I finally identify the distant noise, it’s all I hear … th-thump-th-thump-thump …

The noise provides a haunting, fascinating, frustrating accompaniment as I lie there, too asleep to get up and move the bin, but not asleep enough to be oblivious to it. I drift in and out. Sometimes the bin is still there. Sometimes it’s silent.

Despite this–and the Kinderbeast awakening briefly at 4:30am asking to be tucked in again–I get up for my morning shift feeling none the worse for wear. I even feel better than I did yesterday. I don’t write as many words, but I’m happier with what I’ve written today than I have been since I started this particular story.

Of course, I start the day feeling fine, but gradually descend into barely functioning consciousness by the evening. A combination of sickness and broken sleep.

Nevertheless, we finally complete our Sherlock marathon with the Christmas episode, The Abominable Bride. The Victorian setting is a treat, but I still feel it’s a shame they had to tie it in so explicitly to the present-day continuity. I will forever admire Sherlock for its ambition, the fact that it’s never content to merely repeat the successes of its past and will always push that little bit further. Far more admirable than the critics who routinely proclaim that the show has gone off the rails. I imagine the same critics would lambast the show for being boring and derivative were it actually to stay on the rails …

I’m also impressed that the show has kept the Elderbeast’s interest throughout. We will now have to come up with something else equally worthy for him to binge on …

January 17

I wake up a little after the alarm goes off, when the Kinderbeast comes in to demand his morning feed, but the extra 15 minutes’ sleep does me good. I wake up refreshed and hammer out around 800 words on my accursed first draft.

But it’s all an illusion. As soon as I get to work I can feel the sickness creeping back in. I eventually have to head home as my brain is working about as well as my body. It’s my least favourite kind of sickness, something akin to manflu–too lacking in energy to get anything useful done, but not nearly sick enough to justify collapsing into bed.

Also, there is an entirely unacceptable level of warmth in the air.

The evening’s entertainment, as always, is Sherlock. We’re back to Season 3 now: His Last Vow. There’s a lot of nods ahead to The Final Problem, so it’s timely that our diversion into Season 4 has led us back to this one. Perhaps the show’s biggest strength is its villains, and Charles Magnussen is as compellingly repulsive as they come: an unforgettable character and a performance so committed that you can’t even see the acting.

January 16

Another Monday. I get up early and make a slightly better stab at my first draft than the day before. The rest of the working day proceeds with a sufficient number of meetings to provide a degree of distraction and I leave work having been reasonably productive. It’s about the best one can hope for from a Monday.

I talk to the Elderbeast about trying to make more productive use of his internet access. If only a few words sink in it’s probably still worth it.

We watch what may well end up being the final episode of Sherlock in the evening (given the previous episode’s cliffhanger, watching the subsequent episode immediately was a necessity). It starts off well, with probably the most terrifying villain the series has produced–an impressive feat after Toby Jones’s effort in the last episode–but then loses itself somewhat. There are still moments of brilliance throughout. Even when Sherlock fails, it only ever fails because it shoots higher than most and refuses to fall back on the same thing that has worked before. On reflection I decide that the series has perhaps strayed too far from the path: instead of compelling mysteries for the main characters to solve, the writers now feel they have to delve ever deeper into the mysteries and challenges of the characters’ own lives. It may be a superior form of the genre, but at the end of the day it’s basically soap opera.

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